Note to self

I'm waiting, waiting for something, waiting for the right time, waiting for the perfect conditions... 

But what am I really waiting for? Do I know? Do I have the courage to admit that I don't know what I want? Or is that I’m scared – scared that when I admit to myself that I know what I want, then it means that I have to DO something? 

Do I have the balls to step it up and invest the energy for something better? Or, to put in realistic terms, do I have the balls not to step it up, and waste it all away – ready to sit in some rocking chair and talk shit about how good I used to be, but I just didn’t get the opportunity to ‘make it big’. 

So note to self: What am I waiting for? Stop waiting – take the leap…